Well I feel like a totally new person due to the new
meds I'm on, I believe. I'm
supposta be on 400mg, but I've stopped at 200. I don't feel I need anymore and I don't want to try to go on more and end up in a medicine fog. That's what I believe I was in while on
Lamictal. The
withdrawal from that med was not nearly as bad as I had expected. The
withdrawal when coming off of Zoloft was much worse for me. However I really did not like what I saw in myself while I was off the
meds. But I'm so glad I can '
control' myself with only 200 mg of the
Tegretol. I don't dread my kids anymore.
In fact, I look forward to them. I'm trying very hard to not yell at them anymore, and I'm doing quite well with it. I also do not spank anymore. This may not sound like it's all that wonderful, but I'm very proud of myself for the progress I've made in such a short amount of time. Our house is CLEAN! This is an amazing feat. I no longer feel overwhelmed by the day to day. I just really feel like a whole new person and I love it. I was especially nervous this weekend. Mercury came down with the flu. He's never had the flu before and I was seriously dreading being stuck in the house with them all weekend. Especially since Jupiter is working horrible hours lately. But you know what? We did just fine being stuck in the house together. We actually had...are you ready for this? FUN! Here are some pictures of our 'fun'
Here is Mercury 'cooking' his soup. It's about all he ate all weekend.
We had a garage sale which I ended up ditching the whole thing on my
SIL since Mercury was sick. Anyway, I brought the infant tub out to sell and you'd think the kids had found the coolest new toy in the world.
Yep, Neptune's asthma is
flaring up again. Ugh. But the lady that takes care of
Neptune during the day gave us this cool mask for him. He gets more medicine in and I no longer have to sit right there with him and hold him.
And the best part...the sleeping part. This is actually this morning. Neptune's slept with me the past two nights. He always does when he can't breathe. And Mercury crawled in bed with us about 10 minutes before my alarm went off.